AUGH

Fucking. Brothers.

My younger brother (13) is a grumpy asshole all the fucking time. He's been using the compy for four and a half fucking hours since we got in from school, and I asked him to get off (like he NEVER makes me come off) and he went to switch the computer off rather than log off, like he "acidentally" does EVERY FUCKING TIME. So I hit his hand away from the mouse, and he started swearing at me and kicking me and then he pressed the off switch on the compy and yelled at me and then fucked off. So I slammed the door shut and. A swore a bit too.

The thing is, though we're both at fault, I'm probably the one who'll get in trouble, because "I started it".

He's always in a huff, he's so lazy he won't even walk two fucking feet to get something so he whinges at someone else to do it for him, and if they won't he says they're lazy and, probably swears at them too. He shouts at my little brothers (2 and 4) for whispering during the freaking TV adverts. He's the reason they hit eachother - he even tells the younger one to hit the older. He's hit them himself a few times - a fucking 5 foot 8 13 yr-old hitting a 4 year old. He hit a guy at school for looking at him. And he plays fucking System and slipknot through his amp so loud you can hear in in the garden at the back of the house when he's in the computer room at the front, one floor down - but me drumming is "too loud" for him to "concentrate" on playing fucking tetris. and he didn't play the drumkit for like a year because the hi-hats were warped, but as soon as I pay for new ones, he suddenly wanted to play again. They cost me £40, and only because they were reduced from £100, which i would have paid. Talk about taking fucking advantage. then my parents bought him his own set of hats and new crash and ride cymbals too, and he hasn't played them once. because he's too fucking lazy to learn how. And I'm not allowed to use the kit, even though he doesn't.

And I have to come off the compy all the fucking time when I'm talking to my friends - which I don't get to often, some of them - so he can play stupid online games or watch the same episodes of QI that he's seen a billion times.

It's always me who get in trouble. He can say "fuck" to me ten times, and i call him a twat or slam a fucking door and i get in trouble for it.

I look after the little ones because he "can't". What so fucking hard about watching to under 5s? put on a fucking DVD or read them stories. And as soon as they start crying he just sticks them in the hall and fucks off. One time, I was studying for an exam and i had to stop to look after them because he shouted at them and they were crying.

I hate him so much right now. i want my big brother back.